söndag 23 november 2008

Constant Complications

Here is where I speak, here is where I express. I confess; I do not know of perfectionism, how could I? I am a child of humanity.

As the blood in my veins starts to slow down while I am running next to a bonfire. I feel nothing but cold winds hitting me and my body, I feel how they’re reaching towards the inner of my soul to free me from sins and all the thousand wrongs that have slipped into my thin and slow veins. My blood has changed color from the transparent clean tone of water. It has become darker and turned into the shape of red, thick, red and it floats slow through my veins.

When the sun sets and the bonfire is our only light, I lose my breath, I lose my hope, but as the night grow colder and the bonfire keep me warm I beco
me dizzy. The dizziness results in sleeping. When I sleep, 
I don’t feel the cold winds, I do not feel the warmth from the bonfire. The bonfire burns out just like a candle. The night becomes darker and at its darkest point it turn as a sun reaches in dawn. A dawn of new hope, A dawn of regret or a dawn of life. Life as I always wanted to be or life as how things are. In between comes love, between sins and the clear crystal perfectionism comes a story that made me the man that I am and what I believe in.

So the darkness has two choices, either it kills me, it freezes me to a point where the thick blood in veins can’t make its way. Or, it spare
s me my life, to live yet another day. I spares me to keep on believing in what beauty and magnificence really stands for and it gives me a chance empower my confidence into a strength that proudly lights paths for me. Or it gives the courage to rise and hope for a better dawn, a dawn where I am an ocean, a bonfire or a sun. Where my boat, ground or earth respect me and join as queen respects a king, for the love, respect and warmth the ocean or the bonfire just as the sun gives.

Eddie Vedder - Into The Wild (2007); Nick Cave & W. Ellis - The Assassination of Jesse James (2007)

Fuck Off

torsdag 20 november 2008

Well, Pete...

Johnny Quid: You see that pack of Virginia killing sticks on the end of the piano?
Pete: Yes.
Johnny Quid: All you need to know about life is retained in those four walls. You will notice that one of your personalities is seduced by the illusions of grandeur - the gold packet of king size with a regal insignia, an attractive implication towards grandeur and wealth, the subtle suggestion that cigarettes are indeed your royal and loyal friends, and that, Pete, is a lie.

             Your other personality is trying to draw your attention to the flip side of the discussion, written in boring bold black and white, it's a statement that these neat little sergeants of death and in fact trying to kill you and that, Pete, is the truth.
             Oh, beauty is a beguiling call to death and i'm addicted to the sweet pitch of its siren. That that starts sweet ends bitter, and that which starts bitter ends sweet.
That is why you and I love the drugs and that is also why I cannot give that painting back. now please, pass me a light.
Pete: Oh you are something special, Mr johnny quid.

p.s My MacBook Screen has a crack in it, to quote my dear friend mr. Aron Loveland; 'Fuck My Life' 

torsdag 6 november 2008


That's what I am looking for.

onsdag 5 november 2008

Concerning Idiots

Min fӧre detta blogg, Concerning Idiots Spotted On Horror Street ar dӧd. Den nya bloggen heter Concerning Idiots. Skälet till fӧrändring beror på att fӧrändring har skett i mitt liv. Nya hemtrakter och nya inspirationskällor kräver en viss fӧrändring. Har haft det rätt sa svårt att skriva på sistone. Jag har varken haft inspiration eller tiden fӧr att skriva men jag saknar det och behӧver det så nu ska jag fӧrsӧka komma igång igen.

Eftersom jag numer tillfalligt bor i Kalifornien och studerar pa Santa Monica College så har jag på sistone skrivit mycket pa engelska. Engelska är ett svårt språk att skriva på fӧr någon som är van vid att skriva pa svenska. En av mina kurser är Engelska 1 (Fӧrsta Graden av Universitets Engelska) och kommer därfӧr bӧrja blanda min blogg och skriva stora delar av den på engelska. Detta fӧr att utveckla mitt skrivande inom det engelska språket fӧr att kunna vänja mig vid att skriva på ett språk som jag måste skriva på fӧr att bli fӧrstådd.

Fuck Off